4 years in recovery and I have just started to work on the mental side of it. There are a lot of things that I push back. When it's hard to face painful events from our past, we tend to push it so far back that it is like it never happened. Key word: "like". But at some point you realize you have to face it no matter how painful, because it is still lingering and you never truly forget. It isn't easy, but it is necessary. I haven't worked through everything, but I am trying a little at a time.
With the holidays brings up a lot of memories. Things that are hard to face and talk about it. I love my family, and they do so much for me! But there was a time when they were truly unhappy with my weight and made me feel bad for it. As if I was in trouble for it.. I was in middle school. At that time I wasn't even worried about my body, but I remember after that that's all I cared about. I became obsessive about what I ate, how many calories I consumed, and how many hours of biking I could get in. I didn't want to be a disappointment and disgrace anymore. I wanted my body to be acceptable not disgusting. I cry for my 11 year old self. How cruel. I just want to hug her, and tell her she's beautiful. No one should feel that bad about themselves, and my heart is with you if you are feeling this way right now. I hope you know you are beautiful, and that you matter! Stay strong! 🖤💜 We can face this ✌🏻 #icandothis#bepositive#selfcare#selflove#strength#selfimage#edrecovery#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#anxiety#socialanxiety#strength#staystrong#faceyourfears#edwarrior#hope#love#live#lifeisbeautiful
no, aún no he viajado a bangladesh. este fotograma pertenece a un “docu ficción”, de los que regala netflix, llamado “the tru cost”. me gustaría que lo vieras, para que le dieras un poco más de valor a lo que llevas puesto, o mejor aún, que dejes de comprar lo que NO necesitas y lo que ya NO te cabe en el armario. ATENCIÓN: este documental no es para superficiales o victimas de la moda!!! no, i never been in bangladesh yet. this photogram belongs to a "docu fiction", from which netflix gives, called "the tru cost". i would like you to see it, so that you give a little more value to what you wear, or better, STOP buying what you don’t need it and what you don’t fit in the closet. ATTENTION: this documentary is not for superficial people or fashion victims! #love#peace#hope#happy#happiness#freedom#thetruecost#picoftheday#photooftheday#wecanchangetheworld